15.11.03
whereupon the soul flew from the body
[one fateful afternoon, with the meaningful date of the 15th
memories that remain etched so deeply
we cannot cry
we have to chant prayers]
mewed up to heaviness
a want wit sadness makes of me
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14.11.03
the 9pm show's final episode was satisfying. :D very very good. tis a pity i gave the first couple of episodes a miss because i felt the show was pretty slow moving. apparently that's usually the case for most drama serials. shall learn my lesson because shows just get better by the day. haha. whoa, the power of addiction.
another example of the power of addiction comes in the form of online games. shockwave's mind games are improving with each new game that's launched. haha. they're simply catering to ppl like me, which is bad....it's bad, but i like it. heh. there are more reasons not to study now. i shall fight the addiction though...just for another four days. :D
somehow i imagined this scenario which was, and still is, really ludicrous. but then again, my intuition tells me that it may just come true. it's been about a year now. i wonder what the future holds. which direction we'll go. and what'll eventually happen. i fall into the trap of lying and denial each time dad brings up the topic...simply because i know im not facing up to it and at the same time i dont want to give myself or others a decisive answer. im apologetic but i cant help it either. i just dont want to get involved in anything. since the beginning, it's been escapism. it is still best that i refrain from 'over-thinking'.
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12.11.03
there are more things to life than that. somehow it seems like you're enclosing yourself too much. even if you dont feel suffocated, i do.
there's a lot of information swimming around in my head and there's this urge to wrap a huge bandage around it to prevent the information from spewing out. ludicrous but i wish someone would just invent such a helpful mechanism, especially for people like me with small memory space.
it's just another day of floating about. no surprises, and no shocks. it shall not be considered as mundane. days are happiest when they're without worries. so i guess im happy.
helluva load of crap. hopefully it'll be reversed by tomorrow morning.
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10.11.03
finally got msn 6 in the new comp. not that i cant survive with the older version but i still feel more comfortable with it. at least i can play games again. and somehow there are two icons for msn in my toolbar now. sis signed into her acct with one and somehow i remained signed in on the other. so sis saw me as online in her contact list. she thot someone hacked into my msn acct. scared the hell outta me also. ended up panicking. was wondering who the hell could possibly have gotten my password since i told no one. thank god it was just some silly mistake. phews. worried over nothing. :)
9pm show to last till the end of this week. that's like so sad...it's quite nice. heh. but then again, the new show features my precious tph. hahha. yays!!! must thank daphne again for the gorgeous "incredible hunk" magazine pages. hehx. despite the pleasant comments which were given by herself and dorothy, both of whom have always been incredibly supportive of my choices, heh. but daph has spared me the trouble of oggling at the cover page at shop n save. hahah!
gtg, ciao.
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9.11.03
See what Care Bear you are.
hey angela, same bearie. haha. :)
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maybe it's me. or maybe there is a chance that something may happen. shall let nature take its course. hurrying things will only cause unnecessary panic to myself. but then again...it is too rash, too unadvised, too sudden.
quite uncertain abt a maths. despite the practice, there's still sth that's missing. i guess it's just confidence. shall try to psycho myself that im an a maths genius. haha. too desperate already...last minute kinda thing, just trying to find sth to cling onto. pathetic...
week two of O levels. good luck to myself and all the other sec 4s. let's get this over and done with. urgh.
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